The following session’s transcription is as faithful to the session as possible. When the audio wasn’t intelligible, [word unclear] appears in the text. Reading transcripts allows one to really ponder the questions asked and what alternative questions you might have chosen that would work as well. Also, in this case, to celebrate the transition made by the dancer.

Marcia’s Session with Dancer, 11/4/23

Marcia Miller (she, her): So, Dancer. We've been in the reiki energy now already for an hour, and I'll just remind you that Reiki is flowing through this whole session. Anytime you can tell me if you'd like me to put my hand somewhere, otherwise, I’ll just go where I’m called if that's okay.  And as you're resting here, take another moment or 2 to feel the support of the bed or the couch you're on.

Perhaps there's some way your body can sink into it, feel it holding your legs and hips. torso shoulders and arms and head.

The weight of your head falling back into the pillow.

And as you rest here, what are you noticing now? Is there anything coming forward that wants to be known.

Dancer: and it will itch on my shin.

Did you say? Pinch on your shin.

Dancer: Itch.

Marcia Miller (she, her): itch okay. and an itch on your shin.

Marcia Miller (she, her): and when noticing an itch on your skin, is there anything more about this?

Dancer: No, that's gone now.

Marcia Miller (she, her): and when itch on the shin is gone. Now take a moment to scan your body, your mind and see if there's anything else that wants to be noticed or named.

Dancer: experiences phlegm in my throat that's like feels like a clog.

Marcia Miller (she, her): and experiencing some phlegm in your throat. It feels like a clog. And when feeling phlegm like a clog is there more about this?

Dancer: Listen it now. I think it's making it difficult for me to breathe. Once I breathe, speak

Marcia Miller (she, her): so. I won't repeat the noise you made exactly, but and you're loosening it now. It's making it a bit difficult for you to speak. And when difficult to speak, is it okay that I keep asking you questions? Or would you prefer to be quiet?

Dancer: It's okay.

Marcia Miller (she, her): And so, when feeling into this clog oop. What is clog like?

Dancer: It's like it's like sort of like a swampy lake.

Dancer: Gooey.

Marcia Miller (she, her): just smoothly. It's like a swampy lake Gooey. And when, like a swampy lake that's gooey. Is there any more about this?

Dancer: It feels stuck, just stuck

Marcia Miller (she, her): and feels stuck. And when Swampy Lake feels gooey, feels stuck. What might swampy Lake want.

Dancer: get rid of the slime and the stuff, making it feel gooey.

Marcia Miller (she, her): and it wants to get rid of this slime and stuff that's making it feel gooey. And when it wants to get rid of the slime and stuff that makes it feel gooey. can it?

Dancer: Yeah, it doesn't know how exactly. But yeah, it can.

Marcia Miller (she, her): Yeah. Doesn't know how exactly. But yeah, it can.  And when it doesn't know how exactly. But yeah, it can. What happens now

Dancer: also want to figure out where to put the slime.

Marcia Miller (she, her): And now trying to figure out where to put the slime. And when trying to figure out where to put this slime, what happens next

Dancer: and keeps coming back. seeing like a [word unclear], it comes back, sort of like a tornado, and it comes back. Slime just keeps coming back

Marcia Miller (she, her): and keeps coming back. You're seeing a…

I heard you say a tornado comes back. I didn't hear the first part. Do you remember what you said

Dancer: like? I'll throw it, and then it comes back. Let's throw it.

Marcia Miller (she, her): and it comes back a tornado, and it comes back it keeps coming back.

Marcia Miller (she, her): and when slime keeps coming back, is there a message from slime. Or is there anything slime wants when you want it to be gone.

Dancer: Slime doesn't know what it wants exactly.

Dancer: The biggest thing I think is slime doesn't know where to go.

Marcia Miller (she, her): Hmm!

Marcia Miller (she, her): It doesn't, and slime doesn't know what it wants exactly. It just doesn't know where to go.

Marcia Miller (she, her): and when slime doesn't know where to go, that's like what?

Dancer: You repeat that again.

Marcia Miller (she, her): Yeah. And when slime doesn't know where to go, that's like what?

Dancer: Let's go straight up the lake. The lake wants to be clear. The slime loneliness for not knowing where to go.

Marcia Miller (she, her): Hmm!

Marcia Miller (she, her): So, it's frustrating, because the lake wants to be clear. and slime doesn't know where to go. and when Lake wants to be clear, and slime doesn't know where to go. What can happen now

Dancer: I don't know.

Marcia Miller (she, her): and when you don't know. Might it be okay to offer Reiki to this and rest in silence for a few minutes?

Dancer: Yes.

Marcia Miller (she, her): and, Dancer, are you noticing anything now?

Dancer: Yeah, in that time I just pictured like an elapsed time. Fence that the lake built around itself, and then the slime got through the lake. I mean the fence, because I had homes…slime…I mean the lake built up there. Brick. still, that will sort of like cold and lonely moments for the lake. and open up for people to come in. But then the slime came in too. So, there's just basically like a tug and pull.

Dancer: I'm trying to figure stuff out as far as that. And it's like the slime that go away.

So, it's like. yeah.

not wanting the lake. Yeah, I the lake I'm feeling, and not wanting to put so much time into arguing and fighting with the slime…trying to slow, [word unclear] the slime away instead of trying to find balance. Balance of like the slime being a part of the ecosystem of the lake, by light. Basically, in that time the frustrations and stuff. I'm trying to build that wall.

Slowly the wall came down and it became like balance. Yeah, that's the biggest word I could say…balance.

Marcia Miller (she, her): Hmm!

Oh! And in the silence, there was you, pictured in a lapse of time. A fence was built, the lake built a fence around itself. Slime got through. The lake, built a brick wall around itself. was cold and lonely and the lake opened it up for people and slime came in, too. This tug and pull slime not going away. And in the sense of maybe some frustration, and not spending so much time fighting with slime, but finding balance. Slime being a part of the ecosystem. The word balance is in this. Is there any more about balance?

Dancer: Yup. I'm just saying that stuff. And like before, in that silence I was seeing the balance is like a scale ensuring a [word unclear] like equilibrium. But like. I think now, this balance is more so like walking on a tightrope.

We're…

yeah. like having things walk in on a tightrope broken and that balance to walk across still

Marcia Miller (she, her): and balance like a scale, and hands were moving up and down, finding equilibrium. And now this balance like walking on a tightrope and having that balance to walk across and when balanced like a tightrope having that balance to walk across. Still. Is there anything more about this?

Dancer: Oh, yeah, it's scary.

Marcia Miller (she, her): Hmm!

Dancer: It's scary. And now I want to sit with that. It's scary.

Have tingles in my body right now.

Marcia Miller (she, her): and it's scary.

Want to sit with that. It's scary. and there's tingles in the body right now. And when it's scary like this, is it okay to sit with us?

Yes.

Marcia Miller (she, her): And when it's okay to sit with this? And it's scary. Is there any kind of support, any part of you would like to be able to sit with this

Dancer: yeah. Hand on my shoulder and lower back.

Marcia Miller (she, her): Okay.

Marcia Miller (she, her): so, hands on right shoulder and lower back. And I'll be quiet here for a minute or 2, but feel free to speak. If there's something coming up, you want to say.

Dancer: seeing myself walk a tightrope. Decide. I have support on the right shoulder and like fall off the tightrope. And I'm like scared. But then caught by a net. and I can slowly fall deeper in the net and then spring back up onto the tightrope. and then I start to walk a little more and then fall again and spring back endless. Don't worry back up, but as I'm doing that more and more.  I can't see any physical weight or anything, but like something's being every single time I fall something else is being left behind. and it's getting easier to walk the tightrope with each fall.

Marcia Miller (she, her): Hmm! So you're seeing yourself, and you're seeing yourself walk a tightrope. Falling. Getting caught by a net falling deeper into the net and spring back up onto tightrope and again. And as doing that, more and more, something is being left behind each time. and it's getting easier to walk the tightrope with each fall.

Marcia Miller (she, her): And when it's getting easier to walk the tightrope with each fall. What are you noticing as that's true for you?

Dancer: Honestly, I made it to the end of the tightrope. I turned around. And now I want to go back on that rope just a little bit faster now. a little less scared.

Let me fall. No, I do follow. I do see myself. Oh, yeah, I'll fall. But I got back on. And yeah, now I'm gonna make it to that end. We probably just do tightrope dance again and again. Now it's as I'm just picturing myself doing it. It's this so much of scary tingles at the beginning, but more of like a tango, like fun and daring. Now

Marcia Miller (she, her): hmm! So! And you made it to the end. and you turned around. And now you want to go back on the tight rope faster and less afraid. and make it to that end still falling. and do that tightrope dance again and again. And now there's more of a tingle and less fear. with more fun and daring.

Marcia Miller (she, her): When you're doing that type of tightrope dance again and again with the tingle of fun and daring. Is there anything more to know about all this as we're moving towards the end of our session together?

Dancer: Now, as I'm seeing it just sort of flow and end. for to continue. Now I'm being wild with it. I got like a I'm riding this thing with a motorcycle. Now. I'm juggling. I'm doing all types of stuff on this tightrope stuff, and it's just, it's fine. Now I'm actually falling less. I'm more comfortable with the tightrope itself, and it still has that fun daring part. But now it's still on.

Dancer: Hmm.

Dancer: spill in. It's not comfortable, I want to say. But, yeah. it's like, when you get a glove that fits just right, it feels just right.

Marcia Miller (she, her): And so, you're seeing yourself flowing across the tightrope with a motorcycle, you're juggling. and as you get more comfy, you're falling less. It's fun. It's still fun and daring. like a glove that fits just right. Is there any image or phrase from this session that you'd like to take with you into your day.

Dancer: Honestly fuck it. Yeah. Fuck it.

Marcia Miller (she, her): Yeah. Fuck it. Okay?

Marcia Miller (she, her): With a big laugh. So, Dancer, take all the time you want to shift gears if you want to, and you may want to keep lying down right here and just be with be with this session. That's fine, too. You can rest and integrate and be silent.

Dancer: Thank you.